It can make you make connect things that are apparently unconnected. It's the anxiety that fuels the feeling that it is real. I have had false memories and real event OCD about my dad and brother (they are mostly false memories) and about being abused by them. OCD guilt, false memories, etc. That's just how to defeat OCD. Yeah, I’m feeling a lot better today. Memory and imagination can be very powerful, and because OCD makes you doubt things while demanding certainty, it can make you have trouble in working out what is real and what is imaginary. Thoughts can, and do pop in to our mind seemingly out of "nowhere" all the time. Apart from anything else, I don't think actual rapists obsess over the harm they've caused. When most people think of the compulsions experienced by those with OCD, they think of the stereotypical hand washing or door checking seen in Hollywood films like The Aviator or As Good As It Gets. I’ve got a few questions just so I can understand my OCD. It sounds very much to me like a memory of a memory. I'm afraid OCD does come and go. My OCD tricks me into having memories of things that never really … I really know how you feel. Now I am not sure if she just made that motion in a fit of rage, but I did not see her full breasts and it never happened before or again. So I know completely that the “feeling” I remember feeling is false. But OCD can put false memories in your head. Hypnotists can make people believe things that aren't true. It can make you 'remember' things that didn't actually happen. It doesn’t make sense either. I don't think that you are deluded beyond what OCD does to you. I’ve looked back over the stats for the year and still right out in front is the post I wrote on Pure O and False memory OCD. I am 100% sure my mom never abused me (only discipline that was physical was a slight slap a couple of times) however I am not obsessing over a memory that I am pretty sure is real. A lot of OCD isn't 'textbook' though a lot of cases follow similar patterns. I kept going over a memory in my head where I could’ve raped someone and a memory sprung in my head where I rubbed myself on my girlfriends buttocks when I was 15, but I don’t know if this actually happened. There’s details I WOULD remember but I don’t, so it must be false. I need help as I’m currently struggling with False memory OCD, im scared as it could be real event OCD. I never really had this problem when it came to my mother until recently. Try to ignore it. I can remember dreams where the sensations felt really real, and the emotions too, so much so that I've needed to convince myself I was actually dreaming! But bits of memory can get jumbled up together and then imagination can fill in the blanks. From false feelings, false fear. Because our memories are often fragmentary, because we don't always remember everything in the order it happened, this leaves a lot of room for doubts. It is a recognized mental health condition and any crisis centre should know how to treat you. It feels so real in parts, but I can’t even remember first remembering it, I just know it got bigger and powerful each time. Are the thoughts true? I feel this confirms my worst fears and confirms all the memories are true because I should know if it was or not. Little to no anxiety and no rumination. Best of luck. At the moment the fear mechanism in your brain is firing on all cylinders and reinforcing a false memory. When I’m using logic it’s easy but the doubts come back to me which is so hard to overcome. However, for many with OCD, especially those struggling with any of the Pure O variants, their response to their obsessions is more likely to be i… The images and feelings in your mind could be memories of things you may have watched on a film for example, which your imagination has taken on and then assumed it happened to you. It’s making good me constantly doubt OCD and False memories and keep ruminating which makes everything so much more vivid. But he told me it wasn’t “textbook OCD” and he said everyone with OCD knows their thoughts aren’t true and know that they aren’t what their thoughts tell them and know when memories are true or false, and he said me not knowing if it’s true or false is more than OCD. It means remembering something you actually did do and obsessing guiltily over it. It’s been 2 years of constant rumination for me, but I have doubted this memory before, but that’s when I first found out about OCD. A lot of people use porn, and some porn is harmless! Real rapists don't ruminate about it, they don't regret it or feel remorse, and they try to pin the blame on the victim. I have cheating OCD with false memory - it's like hell. Yeah that makes sense. It doesn’t fit the stereotypes and it sends my mind on a tangent. The mind is pliable and not always reliable! Yeah you’re right it does keep changing which should give me my answer but it’s difficult to convince our OCD. Please read below for more information and resources about about OCD and what this subreddit is! Thank you for your constant kind words, it helps so much! Although OCD thrives on doubt, you can still learn to manage to deal with the doubt. Believe me, there are real rapists, who really do rape people, but it is clear you are not one of them. I have no idea why she would do something like that, but then again people do a lot of stupid things and say a lot of stupid things when that angry. That's great that you're going to a therapist. Thank you. Just let them be. It’s my only hope atm. Part of my OCD is wondering if I should stop talking to people because of things such as this. It doesn’t make sense to me. Plus, i re-enacted getting into position, but I still don’t know what comes after. They get fed up if you don't pay them attention and go away of their own accord usually! I don't recall that you are on medication of any sort, but it could be a start to get a prescription for antidepressants if you don't already have one. A false memory doesn't make something real. It means training your brain! I still do not think this was done out of some sexual gratification like my cousin did (opposite sides of the family) but it started to bother me recently. They’ll think I’m insane. One thing that’s lingering is I tried to reenact my memory stupidly and the anxiety kicked off and it made me feel like the memory is true. For example, I've found myself watching, say, a cooking programme where someone squeezes and lemon, and suddenly I can smell lemon! It's the ruminating that makes you doubt. The best thing to do, if you can, is to just let them alone. They haven't really believed it in their rational minds, only in their OCD minds. I couldn’t explain the “feeling” if I tried but it makes the memory feel real. I do have moments where I think "no that didn't happen" but other times I can envision the entire thing. Also, I feel like I can remember a “feeling” or sensation, is this false too? Is it really how I remember it?' While we might liken our memories to a camera, preserving every moment in perfect detail exactly as it happened, the sad fact is that our memories are more like a collage, pieced together sometimes crudely with the occasional embellishment or even outright fabrication. I don't know about porn having anything to do with it. HOCD related thoughts are just thoughts. So I wanted you all to know that I haven’t forgotten about you and hopefully the yoga will come together with this blog to give me more tools to help us all in conquering OCD completely. I’ll admit, I fell into rumination a couple times, but I got myself out. It’s one of those things I wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemy, if I had one. As there is no such thing as 100% when it comes to these false memories (although I am 100% I was abused by my cousin), I am 99.99999% sure that there these two people did not abuse me. By all means go into your local crisis centre, but I think you really need a course of intensive CBT. It's just a false 'memory' and without the OCD, you'd realize that there is nothing to remember. This is confusing my already confused mind. You’re entirely right, you’ve hit the nail on the head. How fast can they form? I am in therapy, on meds, etc, but it is not always 100% effective. I went through this too!!! Okay thank you so much. Hopefully from what you have already read you will know the answer to this is no. I hope the assessment is helpful. Is this just my OCD taking advantage of the terrible mental state I was in at the time, or was I so distracted that I actually did this? It's best to not ruminate about it, because the more you go over it the more real it feels. The worst part is when I’m just relaxing it feels like my body is use to the anxiety and panic and it still feels there which is so confusing to me. The feeling never stuck as one. That means not actively grappling with the false memory, just letting it come into your head, acknowledging it and then letting it go. In a lot of cases the harm was minimal anyway. The fact that your false memory isn't stable is a good indication that it is false. Distorted the memory? If the OCD and false memory returns, try dealing with it the way you have done so successfully. having OCD makes you hold onto the doubt, go over and over it in your head and obsess and ruminate about it. Also porn stars often have bodies that don't represent what most people are like. People have believed some pretty bizarre things because OCD told them to! Also, I read about “real event OCD” and now I feel like my memory is a Real Event. I think my “what if” is what started mine off. 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